Tuesday, March 27, 2012

A Reprieve

Well, I still have my job, the one I love!

Friday afternoon at 3:00, everyone got an email that basically said, "If I haven't met with you this week, you will be in the same job next year."  I breathed a sigh of relief, getting teary as I read it to my office-mate.Two teachers were released from their contracts, seven others shifted to other grades. It wasn't just my imagination.

I am a person who is always "waiting for the other shoe to drop". Why do I always fear that the good spot I'm in can't last forever?  I somehow think of my worrying as being prepared, always steeled against disappointment. But why do I anticipate disappointment? To maintain a sense of control? Because I feel that I don't really deserve happiness? I don't know...

So, with a little survivor's guilt, I happily look to next year. I hear that there will be many changes in the program I am involved in, but as I said, "Baby, I'll do anything.."

Thanks for listening to my worries, Cathy

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4 comments:

nana_ang_poppaphil said...

That is good news Cathy, and you aren't alone with your way of thinking, we all have that sense of disappointment with things in life...

just call me jo said...

The job situation is so tentative every where. I'm glad you were spared. Good!

Breezy said...

I feel like I can finally breathe..
I know things will be different next year but its okay, we can handle anything!

carry on!

Hawleywood said...

So glad you still have a job!!!